Conversations between me and my mental illness

MI = mental illness me = my inner voice

MI: I HATE MY LIFE! I HATE MY LIFE! I HATE MY LIFE!

me: That's not really you thinking those thoughts and feeling those feelings. It's just the MI. You need to get new medication, excercise, stop socially isolating yourself and you will start to feel better.

MI: YOU ARE IRRELEVANT. YOU ARE INVISIBLE. NOBODY IS LISTENING OR PAYING ATTENTION TO YOU. YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE IN LIFE.

Hmmmmm

I've been trying to figure out where I fit in. Not sure. Bummed cause I didn't get an invite to HS reunion even though I am FB friends with a lot of people from school. I was just another face in the crowd then and I still am. Feeling very blah, bummed, disappointed....unimportant.

2010

Dear Sadie,

I had an idea.......

Weird things I saw the other day

At my daughter's softball game the other week, I saw 3 things I thought were a little unusual.

1.) A 40 something woman wearing a skin tight shirt with the word "HOTTIE" written across her very large chest..... and she was followed by

2.) her 15 yo daughter who was very pregnant

Later ...

3.) a boy on a unicycle rode by.....

what is in the water around here?

depression

I've been on depression meds for 10 yrs now. Unfortunately, I will be on them for the rest of my life. My days are..... some good, some not so good.... Today, I'm feeling very bummed, old, blah.... Had an argument with my FIL yesterday over my 13 yo's boyfriend. Then had an argument with hubby right before bed..... Unresolved issues I guess.. I need to get up and excercise to kick this blah day.